it's 10 am how did I start I wonder scratching my legs rushing towards the nail clippers it gets better heartbeat too fast might pass out I took a call and collapsed afraid of the other side good thing they can't look into my eyes falling to the floor hitting down the walls my heart is out of control I haven't touched my brain it's only Tuesday why can't I live peacefully chaotic mornings where's my oxygen I'm only scared this is the beginning let it be the last