Pain.. when left alone to just be pain; and trying to heal from that place, without giving hope to others the way that you do so beautifully when you write the way you do..
It all becomes such a loneliness, when unshared.
And your opening up in that beautiful and gorgeous way that you do-- it is a wonderful example (both to, and for) so many who are still tightly bound within the pain of it all, never knowing that the reaching for hope is so very worthy of their time and energy: both, desperately needed
in order to become able to press through the shame; in order to just be able to hold on.
Never more gorgeous and **** you are to men like me-- when you glow that way.. as a beacon of light to those who were ones bound so very tightly, within the injustice of all that was so unfairly laid upon them-- just as it also was with you. And, your healing and perseverance, in your movement towards strength, again, is opening doors for many-- there is no doubt in my mind, of that very truth:
Something deep and beautiful happens inside of me, and those like me when I see ones like you do that beautiful thing that you do out there. Wild thoughts come to the surface-- of mouth, pressed to mouth, and gentle (and the not so overly gentle) removing of clothes-- in a not so very un-fast pace.. in the deep need to so very quickly know, between brightly-glowing bodies; that wonderful feeling of skin on skin. Really. xo
And, though innocent in your use of it, and unbeknownst to you, there is a conniving and scheming within it that bypasses all of the filters of my heart, and enters directly into desire's unbridled and untamed world--
the one that always is brewing within me, subsurface.
Leave it to the gorgeous wild-ones such as yourself to bring that part of me out into the light of day-- where I can barely manage it. The thought of ever being alone with ones like you at night, brings about such a wonderful, exploding eruption of warm, lava flow..