It pains to watch you fall,
From that sky of stars.
It hurts to enter the hall,
You left us with your scars.
You've been obsessed with your thoughts,
To the extend that you vanished into them.
It must've been hard to let it all consume you,
It must've been worse hiding all the pain with that smile.
And I despise myself for not being there when you needed someone,
I hate myself for not having your back in your hard times,
I regret all those times when I couldn't understand your struggle behind that fake smile.
I'm sorry dear friend,
I just want to make some amends.