Summer always was my trigger season
the time were always everything would change
my heart got broken more than once this year
every time you made me feel worthless another piece broke
this cruel summer
I have cried over everything that ever happened to us
I have died about everything that ever happend to me
I have learned how much my own happiness means to me
and that the happiness I always saw in us was dead
loving you was like selfharm,
I know how bad it was and still I could never leave
I needed you to leave first so I could see how much it changed me
the secret sharing stopped, you weren't my favourite person anymore
I wasn't my favourite person anymore
this summer everything changed
I've learned my first crush will be nothing than just a teenage crush
and that it's okay to cry over someone who isn't good for you
this summer I learned it's okay to feel totally fucked up
and that feeling like you are 16 again is totally fine
there is this new someone with beautiful rare eyes and an insanely beautiful smile who I can share my secrets with and be myself with
it's crazy how I can feel more loved and more special with you
you learned me
I am not too much and I deserve to be loved for everything that is me