Still leaving
together again, for what felt like forever.
separated by only a door, which left me believing.
I was hoping things would change, I was not clever.
The distance between us had grown.
The nights and days spent secretly talking,
Living and experiencing feelings not my own,
are still leaving, you're still walking.
I loved you. I was scared, but I told you.
You went to Texas, I thought only the best.
I would have begged you to stay if I knew.
You ignored me completely, with feelings repressed.
Every time we talked, you brought him up.
how happy you were, how good he is.
Who was there for you?
For hours and hours, days and nights?
For all of the tears, and fears, and frights?
Who did you tell the horrible truths, and the things that haunt you?
Who loved you first? Who trusted you completely?
Who was there?
I am still here.
Every morning, and every night.
Every dull moment, every time you feel scared.
I am always here. Still here.
Someone who has always been there for you, and wanted the best for you
No matter how much it hurts me.
It hurts me
I still lose sleep.
nights and days, hours and hours
but now for nothing, morning what could have been.
The worst part is, you're thinking of leaving again.
What am I to you?
I know you mean more to me.
Through the best and worst, I think of you.
I could never, ever leave you
Maybe you're stronger than me, or just a better person.
You have known him longer than me.
But is it the same?
You know things about me no one else could know.
I still have your secrets in me.
I love you
I hate what happened
I hate what is happening
You should have just gone
You are only going to hurt everyone else more
You are going to hurt me again
More and more every day
I am stuck on you.
You should go.
please stay.