without realizing it,
when i'm laughing and smiling,
i'm still keeping
a lot of pain in my whole body.

the walls that i've built,
can actually fall down in seconds.
i thought i was strong,
but i'm weak and fragile.

hiding your misery isn't an easy thing to do,
it's extremely painful and hard,
it's like the cruelest torture in this world.
do you wanna know how it feels like?

it feels like i'm being punched,
stabbed and pushed off of a building.
but oh yeah, how could you know?
you never experienced it before, right?