I'd like to be haunted so I'm never alone I talk to my demons because no one is home. I look in the mirror and I want to break it Because I see my body, and ****, I hate it. When I was a child, I'd dream of my future But the heat death is coming, so what does it matter? The pictures on the walls show a pretty little lie, Because little me was smiling but she still wanted to die. I'm friends with my depression because it's not gonna leave me Anxiety is my companion because it's only here when I'm breathing. I'm tired okay? I need a **** break Because I can't cry anymore And ****, I feel fake. Little Susy had it worse and she's a thriving mom now. But I can't seem to cope, if you know, tell me how. Why does my chest seize up when I'm alone When the silence fills the room Why does my brain feel the need to talk amidst the hush, And I pray my husband is home soon. Because being alone with myself is terrifying With all the **** in my head. Because when I'm alone, it's easier to hear My brain say I'd be better dead.