I have a heartbeat in my chest
I don’t want one
Beating.
Reminding me that I’m here
Alive.

I wish that when I stop to think
I couldn’t hear it
supply oxygen to this body
I do not want.

Though it would be painful
To stop the heart
In my chest
I hurt as it is.

If it were to stop
The pain would subside
I wouldn’t feel this anymore
It would be good.

Beautiful  probably.