Black ink seaps from my pores- oily and tainted of hatred My body has no place for anger or hatred or jealousy So out it spews- from my skin- my lips- spit drenched lips Spitting up feverish complaints of disgust Yet they say your poisons are your own to consume To take- to swallow- to abuse yourself with Trama ringing as tinnitus in the stillest nights Dripping from my skin oil pools as I wade through pain Forcing it all out and drowning in it all the same Darkness floods my brain- sludge swarming Black pouring from white out- all sclera eyes rolled back Begging to wield this pain against another- any monster No human to be harmed by the inky tendrils that encapsulate me Sensitivity thinning the toxins out- they pour from my pores Fingers leaving trails along walls as I sit in a shower to leak out Ring out to dry- only to refill with more doses of abuse the next day
...still off my antidepressants and back to being wayyyy too ******* sensitive, anxious, and mostly depressedddd. Its absolutely fantastic.