what do i have to say
in this puzzled situation
what do i have to do
if it is destroying my ambition
what do i have to tell
people around me
if they keep asking me what's wrong
if the same question is becoming a greeting
for all the passerby and all human around me
what do i have to tell them
should i lie them
should i tell them that i am ok and fine
should i sit there stoically
pretending not to speak out about my problems
even when they trying bang my head
almost bursting

even when i'm alone in my room
and all i can do is crying
until my tears smear on my cheeks and
front surface of my pillow

i believe that speaking out can help
but i just lost the power to execute
my senses are telling me not to trust anyone
my eyes are only picturing evil things
my thoughts have drowned in negativity
all i can think about is commiting suicide.

i have a family that loves me
i have bestfriends that care about me
i have a sweat lover who promised to
stay by my side
but now i don't need anyone
i just wanna be alone
its all i think it can help
i just feel that i don't wanna live in this lousy world
and all the peoples are becoming annoying to me
i don't even wanna think about them.