Eyes ache with loads of uncried tears As my chest caves with the weight of A heart that can't live freely I just want to live I want to be alive I want to be free in this life To have one at all Because I'm so stuck right now Trapped behind my own mind And I'm grateful that it's protected me But I am safe now I don't need such high security I don't need to be on guard with everyone It's ok to be afraid and to not trust But it doesn't help if I can't open up I feel so alone Yet I maintain that same state I have people that truly care and love me But I don't let them see me My mind doesn't want to be vulnerable It thinks others will see it as a weakness And the weakest are the easiest to break I'm afraid to get hurt again I can't handle becoming another target Which is extremely ironic considering I'm the one the aiming the gun At the most genuine piece of my soul