Seated beside you
Pulled in and held close
Talking, laughing,
What a marvelous thing indeed

What's in your head?
This, or something more?
Such is only lore...
I think

Do you wish to caress my lips?
To kiss me?
Well, dear one,
Be careful
For I am unpredictable
Not even knowing what I would do
If such were to occur

The last time
I was kissed
I froze in anxiety
Not sure what to do
Yet liking it
To such an extent
That I had no idea how to react
Ruining the moment
Hurting them...

Don't take it personally
My emotions for you are boundless
But I don't want to hurt you

Whenever I get close
Like in such manner
I fear I have no way
Of doing a thing
But freeze

Trembling
From it too
But other things fester...
Anxieties

It is hard to
Let it all go
Try to learn what to do
I'm afraid you fell for a fool

- Jay M
April 25th, 2019