You convince yourself to stay where you are because you're afraid of wading in waters you don't know. You believe it won't be better than where you are now, but you know you're not happy You deserve better.
You feel ungrateful for what's be given to you, but you matter too. Unhappy is unhappy. Don't let it sit. Don't let it dwell.
You convince yourself that certain things outweigh the others. The small things matter too. You're allowed to be upset, but you'll never allow yourself. You deserve better.