maybe if I didn't see you that summer day maybe if I didn't hear your laugh maybe if I didn't talk to you the first day we met maybe if I didn't ask for your name maybe if I didn't wish to be your friend maybe if I didn't follow you around all summer maybe if I didn't see you in the hallway so much maybe if I didn't buy you things maybe if I didn't get your friends to like me maybe if I didn't see you stare at me when 'I wasn't looking' maybe if I didn't kiss you in front of the courtyard maybe if I didn't ask you out on my birthday for luck
maybe if I didn't let you in
maybe if I didn't hold your hand so tight maybe if I didn't text you so late at night maybe if I didn't talk so much maybe if I didn't call so often when you were sad maybe if I didn't spend so much money on our two-month gift maybe if I didn't tell you so much maybe if I didn't smoke so many cigarettes