I answer the phone, And my heart stops. My eyes blur, And my world cracks.
I am on the ground Hugging my knees to my chest, And I am numb.
I don’t feel the shaking of my body, I don’t hear my sobs that wrench from my cracking body I don’t see the people stare at me as they witness my utter destruction.
My body is breaking. My soul is shattering. My whole world is growing dark, And the only thing I can do is scream, And shake, And cry, And wish to take you’re place.
I can’t fathom a world where I can’t call you Where you won’t be there to give kind advice, And stern reality.
With a shaking voice, I ask “How will I ever be the same without him?” My stepmother responds “You wont.” -ALC March 13, 2019