I always wished one day I could just be FREE yelling to myself to just let me be FREE FREE from pain FREE from hurt FREE from insecurities FREE from me but the FREE I want isn't the ordinary FREE FREE from oppression FREE from tears FREE from fears FREE from me just one day I just want to let me be FREE FREE to express FREE to speak FREE to love FREE to be me but if I let me be FREE I wouldn't actually be FREE because the FREE in me never tends to see itself be FREE FREE loves instead of wanting and needing to be loved FREE leans not onto own insecurities FREE isn't feared to cry tears FREE speaks and isn't afraid to express but will my FREE tend to see the FREE that needs to be FREE will FREE see the need to set FREE, FREE maybe one day i'll be FREE FREE to laugh FREE to smile FREE to believe FREE to be me maybe one day, just once, the FREE within me would acknowledge that FREE yearns to be FREE but instead my FREE tends to see FREE as FREE to be trapped within me FREE notices imperfections and embraces them unlike me FREE! FREE! FREE! but until my FREE doesn't acknowledge itself as FREE FREE will forever and always be trapped inside of me never to be FREE! i just want to let me be FREE FREE!
Its a very confusing poem but you have to see the word free as two different stand points fighting at each other. Focus on the words I, Myself, My, and Free. I have been through so much to the point that my mental see's the meaning of Free so differently then I have perceived it to be. Sometimes freedom of self is all you need and this is what I wanted. This poem was written October 6, 2013, ENJOY!