lately, the anxiety keeps settling in my teeth, setting them on edge: an unwelcome guest spitting scornful jest to cause my brain to second guess every thought i thought wasn't a mess, exposing my mind -- a train wreck
i scruff my tongue against them in the hopes of forcing the enamel clean but this apprehension's made of harder stuff that even molars couldn't crush; the muscles of my jaw clench their unhappiness, an endless throb of raw numbness, itching to be expelled through sound or sick or movement
excuses to flee, suddenly, enunciated by the bitter desperation to expel what words fail to express; there's no sudden obligation, no needs to address. i'm just trying hard to outrun the foam of fruitless frets fizzing into overflow, stomach acid upset
i need to escape this monotonous cycle and do something new to let my mind reset