Feb 2019
I am not
OK
Today
it felt like a
VICE
around my throat
abandoned
by my mind
as the moments
crept in threatening
to take it all back
make me return
but I hate you
not for ending it
if anything that was
the greatest thing you
could have done
I hate you
because when I was
with you I was a
COWARD
and I wasted
too much time
trying to be
what you
WANTED
instead of
who
I
WAS
OK
Today
it felt like a
VICE
around my throat
abandoned
by my mind
as the moments
crept in threatening
to take it all back
make me return
but I hate you
not for ending it
if anything that was
the greatest thing you
could have done
I hate you
because when I was
with you I was a
COWARD
and I wasted
too much time
trying to be
what you
WANTED
instead of
who
I
WAS
I wrote this poem to express a relationship that I thought was the answer. I gave up a lot to be in the relationship. Lost people who I thought cared about me. Even though I was angry and hurt, I've come to realize that it was a blessing in disguise as it showed me who really cared and how unhappy I really was
