When you grow with a hole inside you
It doesn’t get smaller
It grows with you
Black pit that seems endless

You put things inside
Friends, clothes, make-up, stories you’ve read
All of them drown
Too heavy not to fall

You try to fill it with dirt
Quick romance, alcohol, distractions
They seem to fly over it
Never even touching  

This black hole doesn’t like
Memories you would better forget
It only eats those
Which keep you calm

You live next to it
Around it
Sitting on the bank
Wandering how long is the way down

You had expected to get rid of it
As you grew up
Yet it seems like this is your only friend
Always staying by your side

You often feel alone, especially here
There is no one beside you inside your head
Only you and this dark hole
Taking more and more space

You’ve considered letting go
Finding how far is the way
Maybe you will sprout wings
Pearly feathers dancing around

You will then fly away
Forget about  the past
Reach this promised land
You only visit in your dreams

But you know that it’s a one-way road
Only leading deeper and deeper inside
Even know you are too deep
And you don’t know if it’s worth the risk

So you sit next to it
Dreaming of wings and better worlds
One day you may take a leap down
But it’s not today