I hate that you care.
I hate that you do,
because I’m not getting better
anytime soon.
That’s not something I can do.

I hate that you worry.
I hate that you do,
because I can’t take any more worry
just inside this room.
That’s not something I can do.

I hate that you love me.
I hate that you do.
and although I love you,
I’m incredibly afraid
that someday I’ll hurt you.
That’s not something I can do

I hate that you are the only one to fix me
in a world
that just can’t stop breaking.
because emotions are too hard,
feelings too complicated,
and life too scary
when I can’t see my cards,
and I fear that you hate me
for your unique ability
to fix me.
That’s not something I can do.