i can't tell you that you'll be okay because that would be lying i don't know if anything will be okay, and honestly i can't say for sure that you'll make it to college but i can say this. i can tell you that you're strong that you've made it this far that you are loved, even if you don't think so i can't predict the future i can't tell you when you'll have your next breakdown i can tell you, though, that you can make it through the future doesn't matter, not right now and you have made it through breakdowns before so prove yourself to the universe once again. prove that you are a survivor, determined to live even when your own mind is telling you to die even if you're not okay, if in ten years you're still in the same dark place- that doesn't matter, not right now, at least right now you are alive you are still here, against the odds you aren't okay, and i'm not going to lie to you but you are getting there. slowly, and painfully, but the end is in sight. so please, be there to see it.
survive.
i was reading an old letter and i started crying when i read something i wrote that said "please, tell me everything will be okay." and it's not. nothing is okay, but it will be. eventually. i just have to be there to see it.