i love myself too much to hurt myself
but maybe not since i’m still w you.
i’m doing this to have a good time and to be happy but idk if i’m actually happy here w you.
i’m afraid to be like everyone else.
but i hear alla time abt these people
that stay w others bc they love them.
n i’m just like them.
you hurt me so many ******* times i cant count.
and i’m better than you, i really am.
i know i deserve better.
so then why the **** am i still with you?
maybe it’s because i know i’ll have to start over
w sb else if i wanna be as close to them.
maybe it’s bc you control me unknowingly and unwillingly.
and you’ve no clue what the ******* do to me.
i can’t understand myself but i know other people can understand me.
i know i’m not as unique as i like to think i am.
and my evidence is that i’m still w you when i know i deserve better.
so *******.