I fell in love when the Christmas lights blurred around you Creating this halo effect, and that's when, I knew, I found my angel But my angel is not Biblical He wears sweatshirts and the same old shoes He talks during movies He plays with my hair And he's not perfect He hurts Hurts in ways that I wish I could heal Hurts in ways that only real angels, watching from above, can understand He hurts so much that he ignores the pain Ignores all the pain Ignores me too
I try to keep my heart afloat But it's like the titanic, No matter how hard I try Which way I steer It always crashes into an iceberg It break in half And slowly drowns the passengers in a froze ocean of depression Where they scream and scream and scream But all that can be heard, up above the surface, is silence
I'm hurting inside And no one seems to notice Maybe because I am so good at hiding it Pretending it isn't there Ignoring the pain just like everyone wants me to Or maybe because no one seems to care Care enough to look a little bit harder To dig a little bit deeper And find the teary eyed girl that hides behind her painted smile Who's drowned all her passengers
I wish I had the wings of an angel Not to fly away But to fold around me Like a cocoon of soft feathers and to have the Silence And I'll stay there, never emerge, never becoming this beautiful butterfly Because butterflies are loved, cherished, appreciated I am still this caterpillar trying to grow wings Painting on this face Sailing my boat And idolizing the angel up above the surface
This black ocean Filled with frozen hearts Is made up of my tears i cry every night The tears i weep in silence