I am trying to stay calm
But how can I rationalize the irrational
For the first time in my life I am utterly alone
                   Darkness forces its way into the world
                   the music stops
the birds fall from the sky in masses of miniature bombs
There is no one left
      no one to laugh with
or cry with
no one to hold close
I dare not close my eyes
for if I do I fear they will never open again
       and I too will be lost to the world
Try as I  might, I can feel the end
I can see the final days clear as crystal
it will start with the eyes
Darkness
Then too my body- legs, and arms- useless
  but the mind will hold on, in agony searching for something
and as the blood begins to fill your mouth, slowly clogging
You wonder why
Why am I alone
Why have I to suffer this on my own
You shudder, gasp, ***** for the air in one final show of sanity
and fall over
Staining the white marble, with your crimson blood
        And once again you are alone
alone
forever
So right now i am trying to stay calm