I met my friends a couple days ago after years of not seeing them, and I didn't feel as good as I used to
They asked me questions about what my life was like after dropping out of college and moving the country and offered unnecessary advice
They told me that they weren't judging me and made me feel like they knew better
I was alone for 2 years trying to get through life with minimal options
No one to talk to
No one who cared enough to ask me how I was doing
I thought I was strong for getting through so much after I had my whole life taken away from me
But they thought I was weak and stupid, they asked "why don't you think" not knowing that all I ever do is think
They offer plans that I've already tried but failed at
But I kept quiet because I was tired of having to stand up for myself when no body listens
I got so used to being alone that it didn't feel right when I was with somebody
I've grown comfort in dealing with my problems alone
They maybe have gotten farther in life than me but they will never learn the things I have
Ive been in Rock bottom, I know pain and suffering, I know hunger, I know what it feels like to be broke, to be broken, to not know what to do but keep walking straight and I know that I will always be enough for me
I've never felt as sure of myself my entire life
I may not have a career or a future yet but I'm happier somehow
I've learned to love myself
To depend on me
Friends are nice but being by myself is enough