I convinced myself one day I could fly Open my arms and allow the wind to carry me Soaring through a brisk, warm air Light-headed and dizzy as I see the earth rotate From underneath my feet And I realize the rotations that seemed ambient before Have all gone away, And I’ll be just like a bird Bones hollow, a secret song swallowed away inside them Free to go wherever I want Without being looked upon Surrounded by patches of deep, lovely, singing blue!
And I’ll forget what death means. Forget blazing, unrelenting, merciless fire Forget old salts and their adventures, in an honorable grave In the slow, murky, wet, deep, dark, time-stopping coral grave underground; I’ll forget muffled screams of dust and grime from six feet under I forgot the wish or dream or ambition or aspiration or objective
So when I jump There was no failing in my legs, Or in my feeble, ****** heart Or in my always-moving brain There was no faltering in my breath No secret wish for death Just a quick, hasty JUMP! Exhilaration and innocence Frivolous yearning An evanescence hoped for by many Because it’s worth it.