I filter through these thoughts and inner struggle in my brain,
They say perception is reality but the truth is blurred again,
Equal parts of beauty and of torment cause a strain,
But you can't see a rainbow without a little bit of rain.

There's way too much to lose but what am I allowed to gain?
I'll take the rough with the smooth and just stay in my lane,
I know I can't come close to even trying to attain,
So why then do I feel so many things I can't explain?

My soul has found a friend, I have no reason to complain,
But what good is there inside of me for her to entertain?
Can I overcome my boundaries? This I need to ascertain,
Just wish I could be better, I'm full of self-disdain.

At the very core of me it's actually quite plain,
I've been touched by an angel and her essence I contain,
I pray to who will listen that my flaws will cause no strain,
Whatever happens I must make sure my sunshine will remain.