I'm so ******* sorry
I'm like this
I don't mean to hurt you
But I'm scared of you hurting yourself
I know what the research says
But I'm still scared
I value our friendship
I don't know why
But I can't lose you
Why are you so important to me
I'm trying to sort out all the reasons
But I just can't seem to find a reasonable answer
My mind is eating me alive
Without those meds of mine
I'm dying inside
I shouldn't rely on it but it's the only thing keeping me sane
Without them, my mind and my brain start to hate me
Make me think cruel thoughts and snap at others who I love
I'm sorry I'm like this
But please,
Just don't ******* go.
I can't lose another.