Oct 2018
saw myself walking around campus
contemplating about life, about me
it's not just the good things i need to focus
but also those that caused my plea
there are things, circumstances
which I cannot control
those of which triggers those chances
of getting myself into a brawl
yes, i'm always in a fight
a fight with myself, my mind
all the silent cries i have to experience every night
really felt like a daily grind
for other people,
they always thought I'm happy
but the truth is I'm in trouble
for pretending and being carefree
contemplating about life, about me
it's not just the good things i need to focus
but also those that caused my plea
there are things, circumstances
which I cannot control
those of which triggers those chances
of getting myself into a brawl
yes, i'm always in a fight
a fight with myself, my mind
all the silent cries i have to experience every night
really felt like a daily grind
for other people,
they always thought I'm happy
but the truth is I'm in trouble
for pretending and being carefree
Now that I knew more about myself, I realized that it wasn't healthy to just let it pass because there are things that we have to let go especially when it hurts you so much. Despite everything , I thank God and I'm truly grateful for my family who understands me.
