“No one cares about you unless you’re dead or lying naked in their bed.” -mute •••
too many. too many to remember. too many to count. all my life I’ve been searching for love and affection in the wrong places.. in the wrong people. I’ve given up the key to my sanctuary given up the password to my treasury only to be tricked and robbed blind. time and time again i allow myself to be used and abused like a ***** but at least they get paid.
words can be so deceiving. one minute they can be whispered so intimately in your ear while you’re feeling the best pleasure known to you and the next millisecond they can be thrown like daggers and you’re the target. and I don’t get it.
every time i think, it’ll be different. every time i hope, it’ll be different. but this time ? i wanted you to be different and I thought you were. but now, my mind is clouded plagued by the poisonous thoughts in my head. i was hoping you’d save me, but you might be the reason i end up dead.
couldn’t decide on the title so I combined both of my ideas together . this poem is very personal and speaks about something I have told little people. if you have read this poem , then you now know me better than almost every person I know. please do not judge me , this is me showing my soul.