When the night talks, she talks in whispers. Sometimes the things she says are kind: a balm at the end of a long day of being grown-up and efficient and all together.
Sometimes the night says, "You can put the mask down now." Sometimes bravery is just sitting in the silence and letting your own thoughts run freely into the space.
Other times, she tells you things you need to hear, whether or not they are easy to swallow. And that's okay too. One of the best things about night is the space: there is more than enough space to catch all the truth, clamoring for your attention to arrange all your captive thoughts in neat little lines here on the wall of your room. You turn them over now in your fingers, examine all their sides--the good and the ugly.
What could you have done differently? How can you do better when the dawn comes?
I used to say that everything looks better in the morning light. I used to say, "Let's wait until the sun comes back up. Then maybe none of these things will bruise us as much."
But I think now, midnight and dawn are two sides of the same coin. Where the morning sweeps you up in a rush, the night pulls at your shoes and glues you to the floor. She says, "Wait." She says, "Listen." "Here are all the important things you missed today. You will need them for tomorrow."
When the night talks, she talks in whispers. She gives you space. She gives you truth.
And the morning? Well—the morning—She sings. I suppose this is why things look different during both times of the day. One is pinpoint clarity, and the other—the hope that follows the mercies we need embedded in gentle sunlight.