.

im numb at first
i dont feel it
as it caresses my skin
i push it further
blindly

..

then the pain
draped over me
like an oversized blanket
dragging me
drowning me

...

i can feel
as it rushes out
like a waterfall
of everlasting doom
pain i cannot describe

....

but in a way
i am still numb
i cannot feel it
i just push it in further

.....

i cannot feel
my heart breaking
into a million pieces
because how can i
when its ~ numb ~






























from all these years of pain...