No one else beside your fear
It shakes the pace of a heartbeat
And sends heads spinning in a clockwork motion
You unravel from the inside out
Shaking feverishly, muttering to yourself
That everything will be alright

I hear the crying of a child ringing in my ears
And realize it comes from my gaping mouth
I am powerless to stop this behavior
Unable to move, I ask for help
For a hand to hold, for a person to embrace me as protection
The room stretches and distorts so far away

I pray for my conscience to stay intact
Yet, ironically, it is the very thing that crumbles my balance
Pushing me off, falling towards the cement
I scream so loudly, I ache so loudly
My bones are shattering and I’m about to break
And I can feel the whole office watching
And I can feel this sense of drowning
A white noise piercing me like needles

My heart and my reality are a ball of yarn that keeps unraveling
I can’t look at this world the same anymore, it keeps cracking open
I feel the tearing of the skin begin
I collapse as the gasoline pours all over me
And I can feel this sense of drowning