Moods changing like the tide
constant but somewhat unpredictable
I used to revel in the highs
yet now they scare me
The person I become is impulsive and untamed
everything I loathe
It is hard to understand and explain
but in those moments, I do not feel in control
And that terrifies me
Words flow from my tongue like water from a tap
Unfiltered and constant
Mind connected directly to mouth
Uttering secrets that were never meant to see the light of day
Revealing parts of me that were not ready to be uncovered
Leaving me feeling so very vulnerable
My insecurities on display for the entire world to see