What to do after a huge break down?

To lay down
Sob as much as possible
To feel nothing
To do nothing
Days, months,
years passing by
To look dull
Unloved
Self-Pity
Unworthy
Play the victim
Fall again and again
Without others noticing
To support back
Stop looking for support at all!

After all the process,
One night
Or one morning
Get up and take charge
Not for others
Not for others
But for oneself
And giving the permission
To oneself
To fall again
And again
But to stand back
And smile
Looking into the mirror
With eyes full of love!