Nobody told me about this side of life
The dark and eerie
The secrets of sinners
Lost and mislead
Sad and lonely
Broke and hungry
The side of life I put myself in

Been little Debbie broke
That's two honey buns shared
Over three square meals
Slept with the tv on
Sound of static drown out the noise of hunger
Had my priorities more ****** up
Then Eric Wright had priority

Seen my brother forced to the streets
Falsely accused
And called upon way to soon
Six years after my mother suffered
Two rounds of chemo couldn't stop it
Doctors that waited to long
She fought to hold on
But eventually even the strongest is called on
Two great souls the lord stole

Perfect maybe
Definitly greedy
Cause I sit here having flashbacks of a few months ago
Watching my pops bedridden
On more morphine then the whole line at the methadone clinic
Sixty years drug free then the Lord felt the need
Made a grown man see his self as a pill ****** right before calling his name


John Wayne
The last real man left
Ten after five he took that final  breathe
Five ten a.m. the last real man left
Fifty minutes before six God decided to take one more

Slipped back to my old ways
Like 2001on replay
On that coke again
Chopping lines for days
Pretending
Lying
Yeah I'm ok
While having suicidal thoughts
Hiding to cry while staring in the mirror
Thinking grow the **** up
You to **** old
Get that straw from your nose
For once I listened
Did as I was told
Removed it to use to load a bowl

From Lady White to Miss Tina
Love with the first hit
She's a bad *****
A street *****
With a powerful grip
A demanding *****
Whatever you have she takes
With no remorse
Doing whatever to keep her from running away
Lock yourself in to keep family and friends locked out
Lie and steal to keep her here
Knowing its only her that keeps you well

No second guessing who's in control now
How quick things have changed now
Lost my income
Dodging the landlord
Rent a center beating on the door
Owe the dealer for two teens
Laying naked on floor
As blood flows
From a hole that caused my brains to fall out
Another man who couldn't take it
One who wasn't waiting for another to decide his faith
One who finally got his way

To who it may concern
Sorry you had to find me
It's ok to turn around never speaking of what you seen
Theirs nobody to inform
My family already left
I wasn't a bad guy
Just a lost man who lost it all
Who ended up selling my soul
Cause I refused to listen
Kept chasing that feeling
My existence was never needed
Save yourself the trouble like the rest did
Just keep walking by
Act like nothing happen
Save your heroics for somebody worth a ****