Exhale, inhale, exhale, inhale, That is what I always remind myself to do. To simply breath. It's hard when your chest is tight. Your heart is heavy. Your mind with thoughts of death. I am so afraid. Disappointed and alone. I am on this journey on my own. I am at home but still a stranger to my own bones. I feel my heart pumping. I see my heart pumping. Trying to survive. I forget to breath sometimes. Just sometimes. I gasp for air when I remember to breath only to forget aΒ Β breath later. One day I am going to forget and not remember.....