i ran and i ran and i ran three countries away three continents over i ran so that i didn't have to wake up and take a shower in the same shower get dressed in the same clothes smell that same **** perfume all laced with memories of you i ran so far that i managed to forget who i was managed to forget that it wasn't just my addiction to pain that kept us together it was all those memories and laughs and suddenly the taste of your lips doesn't seem too distant when i still see your deodorant on my shelf when i see our ticket stubs on my wall when i have the wrapper from the chewing gum i chewed before kissing you stuck to my cork board like a ticking time bomb i ran so far that i forgot what it felt like to love you and suddenly i'm back in my own skin begging you to love me again but you're full of anger and you're full of hate i'm full of fear and i'm scared of fate my purse is still the same one you held for me my neck is still the same one you kissed my wrist smells of the perfume i put on before our first date there are seventeen boxes of hershey's drops on my bookshelf each one shared or gifted by you the flowers from my garden you picked are crumbled but fresh, scattered on my bed i ran three countries away i ran three continents over to escape from a love that i don't even want to get over