Let's start off with this: I miss you. Let's add: every day. Let's keep in mind: we broke up 2 years ago and I have a new boyfriend. Let's do this: get each other's numbers and make plans.
Rewind.
I have not been able to get you out of my head. I have splinters in my heart. I can still hear your voice, can still hear you saying my name. I still get goosebumps at the thought of you. What have I done? How could I let you go?
Pause. We were good. I was filled with giddiness. You filled my heart with wonderlust that was uncontrollable. You made my soul yearn for freedom. I had never experienced that before. I don't now.
Play. My mom said that what we had was simply "puppy love" Oh, if only she could understand... If only she could see my heart. If only you could.
Pause. I want to show you my heart. I have changed. I am different; no longer afraid. Let me open up my heart and show you the cracks I have left in it.
Fast forward. My new boyfriend made me happy. But he does not fill that void. I am currently unhappily in a relationship with him. But I won't break his heart. I won't break another one. I know I broke yours.
What is my punishment? I have done this to myself - I am breaking my own heart because I broke yours. I am breaking my own heart so that I can avoid Breaking his.
But wait. I still need you back. I still need you back. Please don't shut me out.
Please... Take me back...
This poem highlights my inner conflict and confusion about who I want - is it my past, that could possibly have been my first love? Or is it my present, that I am unhappily happy with. It's a paradox in itself. Open to thoughts **