She stares at the clock while shaking He might not like what shes making She checks last nights bruise is hidden Not answering his call is forbidden She does everything he tells her to do If she doesnt he beats her black and blue She believes she deserves what he gives her and the fault is all her own He wouldnt have had to punch her If only she picked up the phone She hears footsteps in the hallway And she knows he's almost there She stands to greet him in the doorway And pretends that she still cares There's a tiny stain on the carpet And she cowers on the floor He doesn't know if shes breathing As paramedics knock on the door She lays in bed in the hospital Unable to see what he's done Hes sorry, and she forgives him But she buys herself a gun When he wont eat what she's making Instead of cowering and shaking She protects herself with the trigger And puts a bullet in his brain She'll spend a lifetime in prison But he will never beat her again