Here I sit

Here I sit underneath a tree so green.
I look at the world what does it mean?
To be alive, all that I’ve seen
Do I have to keep going? Do I need to be so keen?
Whispers and secrets the things I keep
Locked away to not be seen.
The rage, the strife..the weighted grief
The pain I hide that the rage seeks

My struggle’s my own this I know
Do I have to be alone?
My soul is burdened with my own deceit
Lies that I’ve spun I’ve kept so neat

Oh dearest angel come rescue me.
Don’t leave me broken, don’t leave me be
I yearn within me to be by your side
But because of my folly you choose to hide
Is this how it must be until I die?

I ask you now my gentle love, pray to Him who sits above, that He restores our broken love. Forgive my errors, forget my sins
Let down your guard, let go your hate...don’t leave me broken..please let me in.

In life I grow weary, so full of doubt
My rage it screams “fool, let me out!”
But what is its profit? What’s its reward?
To live so mangy and die by a sword?

Can’t we serve together Him that made all?
Let’s stand together, lest we fall.
This cursed world with all its toil
It drives me made and my blood boils.
Give me a hand, help me walk. Let’s smile together as we talk.

I know right now we are apart..but I pray one day God opens your heart.
I sit here now, still alone, and pray one day He’ll bring me home..but still here I sit...yes here I sit