I push people away.
I push people most of the time.
I do it a lot.
Not because I wanted to.
Who would want to end up alone?
Not me. Definitely not me.
I push them because I needed to.
I'm a very difficult person to deal with
I need to know who can handle me in my most complicated self.
Who's gonna be there through ups and downs
Who's gonna be there when I'm being a *****.
Who's gonna hold on.
Sometimes we push people to see who would accept us.
Accept us with no judgements.
Accept us for who we are.
Sometimes we push them to protect ourselves
To protect us from the future pain
You leave them before they leave you.
Pushing people away is actually a test.
A test of friendship.
A test in which the results might make or break you.
As for me? I think it just broke me.