your hand tangled in my hair,
you tilted my head up, bent down,
and pressed your lips to mine.
It felt wrong... really wrong.
I pressed my body to yours
My mouth opened, inviting you in with a sigh.
THIS IS WRONG my head screamed.
Something I should not have done.
Something I should not have let you do.

It was a long kiss.
Your tongue grazed mine
your hand cupped my face and your breaths calm and quiet
mine hot and staggered.
A few seconds of confusion; of desire.
5 years we loved each other,
5 years we couldn't be together.

I pulled away, breaking the spell.
I gasp, my eyes fluttering to stare at my shoes.
the air around us thick with shame and loneliness.
what have i done

I couldn't look you in the eyes.
You embraced me, and asked if i was alright.
I nodded numbly, and stumbled into my home as you walked away.

I entered my room expecting myself to cry.
I cheated. I am a cheater. I destroyed what was the only good thing that was happening to me.

I'm not single,
you're not letting go.
This can't go on.