Eventually You began to say it first. To start With a declaration That you loved me most Already. There was never any room For me to love you More Or less Than you wanted. Usually I didn't mind it. Because I did love you.
Eventually We fought For a day Two days And then Seven days Of silence.
And I realized I could go on living Without you And I heard In the beautiful silence Just how much I had been listening To you before.
(too much.)
I should have longed for you And I did But only When I was lonely Low When I questioned myself
When we spoke again You told me With tears in your eyes And a shake in your voice That you wanted to part ways.
You cried On the screen
I cried Off the screen
Afterwards When you could not Change your mind Out of guilt And blame me for it Later.
The miles stretched between us Like a rubber band In the hands of someone I didn't trust anymore
I will never forget it.
There is something so final
About wishing all the best To a best friend You will likely never see again.
In the end It wasn't a question of loving most. I would have taken a bullet If it meant you didn't have to. In the end I did.