feelings of heartbreak explained in a simple quad.

one ; shock
panic. youre being left behind. even if you saw it coming, you never expected it. this is when you cant seem to tell yourself to stop and breathe. choking on tears that havent fell from your eyes yet. frozen in time. you will remember this moment forever.

two; realization
despair. youve been left behind. you know that for sure now. you realize what has been done. this is what makes you collapse into your sheets. this time you choke on real tears. you scream and scream into your pillow. you will do this for weeks.

three; longing
aching. youve been left behind for a little while now. your heart still aches for someone who has started to forget about you. this is what makes you yearn for the love of a person who you dont speak to anymore in hopes of the pain subsiding for just a minute while you hear their voice. this is what makes you act out in hopes of gaining their attention just one more time. this time you choke on words left unsaid. i miss you will repeat incessantly in your head. you will do this for months.

four; healing
recovery. youve been left behind for months now,
but it doesnt really matter anymore. you will never forget, but youve accepted that. this is what makes you feel strong. this is what makes life feel fulfilled even though that person isnt in it anymore. this time you choke on the words you speak as you explain why you spent so much time trying to gain a persons attention who tossed you away like a sheet of paper. their name will no longer ring in your mind. you will do this for the rest of your life.