"Sonnets From a Conversation With a Friend XXVI "

I want you to know what it feels like so
I show you with my actions the hard pain
Lump of emotion choking me slowly
Continuous no end in sight see my
Suffering i deplore you ignorant
Of what i sense as me i implore you
Secretly with jerks of word and flesh see
It know it the burning i own torching
Me delirious to realms delirium
Shoving reality out the door it
Keeps knocking though i scream banging my
Head till the consciousness goes away
A little while i want you to see me
I need you to love the pain away now