I wonder if people are scared like I am. My teenage years were rough, even though I was a teenager only 6 months ago, I miss those years because, I was so fearless. I wasn't scared of anything but, being heartbroken. I can't even go to sleep because, I'm so scared I won't wake up. I'm in physical pain everyday, and the pain and constant anxiety is taking a toll on me. When I first turned 13 I started cutting myself. I've attempted suicide multiple times between 13 and 16. Bottles of pills, self harming. Now at 20 years old, I'm so terrified to leave this earth. Is there an after life? Is there a heaven? Is reincarnation real? Do we see our loved ones who have passed away before us? I have so many questions, but I am so scared to find out. I wanna live the rest of my life happy and care free, because the constant worry and fear is taking over my life, and I don't want to let it.