And then bang.
The feelings flood my body like an uninvited tsunami
Wiped out with giant waves of butterflies
Taken out, without warning
Adrenaline spills through me, diluting rational calm and oxygen
Uncontrolled, uninvited
But more welcome than the night coming over with piano music and wine
More welcome than the late afternoon sun seeping through canopies on forest walks
This disaster is delicious
I’m addicted to the trauma
I can’t out run it
I don’t want to beat it
I surrender to the inevitable