i have so much in my mind
the words just flooding inside of
me waiting to be drained
why can’t i let them go?

i have so much to give
yet, i’m selfish and keep it to myself

every time i see him
i want to scream and tell him everything
but it’s so difficult
why?

how come when there’s something
that makes me mad, my mind tells me, “it’s better
to stay quiet…”

i don’t want to stay quiet
i want to open up
i want to speak my mind
but it just doesn’t agree with me

maybe it’s my fear that
i’ll be judged and my mind’s
just trying to protect me
it wants me to be safe

but what if there was a person
who my mind finally trusts?
a person that breaks
open the flooding dam of words i’ve built
a person who doesn’t make it so difficult

but is there ever such a person?