when I talk with our friends
I pretend like I know nothing
I remind myself that every thing ends
ours ended before the beginning

it hurts my heart
to act like I’m fine
we both play our part
cause you were never mine

they tell me of your new girl
I manage to smile and nod
but every word makes my toes curl
I’m getting good at my pleasant facade

I never told them about me and you
I guess that’s a good thing
you never wanted to tell them, this I knew
“think of the awkward it might bring”

every word they say
wrecks me over and over
they want to see you today
I won’t be able to hold my composure

this time around, I’m running
make up an excuse to leave
I hate who I’m becoming
so broken that I have to deceive

this situation is dumb
you and I shouldn’t have been
just look at the outcome
you put me in a tailspin